you win some and you think you lose some but you never know

I am at a  time in my life where there are many many highs and many uncertainties that come along with it . I am engaged to someone I love and, at the time that this huge change came into my life i was working in a different city that kept me away from my family and my fiance. My job was offering me a good pay at the times of recession but what was glaring at me was that I was 6 months away from my marriage after which i was going to be a different entity altogether. So it was crucial to me that i spend the remaining time before marriage with my folks as their single daughter before i don new roles . And of course , I also wanted to spend time with my fiance as much as possible . So i was faced with a dilemma as i had no ready job waiting for me back home to leave my current one, and unless i get one it was not wise for me to go, or at least this was what most of the world around me was saying...

But then again, I was not going to get this 6 months precious time back in my life... it was something irreplaceable . But i was scared and was not ready to make a bold move . I tried finding work as i continued to work in a different city , but my heart and head was elsewhere, I also felt i was betraying the current firm and the people i was working for . This sort of thinking , some may say , is a little too cinematic considering  me being in the corporate world , but hey , this was what i was overwhelmed with, I couldn't help it.

So basically to cut the long story short, one fine day , i realised , a new job may come my way , but this lost time i cannot restore if i lose it now .. so i packed my bags and here i am, living with my folks , blogging my thoughts ...

I wonder and weigh the losses and gains ... currently unemployed , and even if i get a job ,the pay wouldn't be as much as it was before, my independence in terms of living away from home , hmm and maybe a few other points in case . But then , what have i gained ? Time with parents at a crucial point in life , home food , and again a lot more advantages ... so what i'm really trying to say is , although it may seem that i have lost a few things and gained a few things , i really begin to contemplate , have i really lost anythin ?? Or rather i begin to look at it this way, have i gained somethin immeasurable ? Many people may find themselves in a place in life quite similar to mine.. What do you have to say about this?